Bury me in satin...

I LOVE The Band Perry :) Incredible music and so powerful. Can I just say that today has been terrible :( One of the worst days I have ever had. I can't remember a day being this bad. But God is good and tomorrow is a new day. Thank goodness. I just need to slow down and get things in order. Soccer at the Y starts Saturday :) Pretty pumped about that! League Director? That's right! How exciting!

I feel like I go through men the way most people go through panties. So over it. But I will NEVER be a casualty. My name is Rachel Bell. It just amazes how some men NEVER grow up. If you want a woman in your life, treat her with respect. And he didn't want sex, just casual dating. Basically til something better came along??? Not sure but I'm not sticking around to find out. And it's hard because he may be a "good guy" but I don't need more friends in my life.

I get to see Peyton and Parker tomorrow!!! Sooo excited :) Then Zee's first game! Yeahhh!

I love Jesus. He never ever fails me. He always loves me. Unconditionally at that! I am blessed :)

Pakistan.

J is being shipped over to Pakistan next Friday. Poor Sar, he's going the day before her birthday :( It's so last minute and unplanned and I'm so frustrated with all of the work I am missing. God is good though and He is watching over ALL of us and I know it'll all work out :) So Monday we are leaving for North Carolina! Kind of bittersweet because I love it NC but don't feel like driving 24 hours in three days ha.

Have I mentioned how much I LOVE being single? No I don't like being alone but I am taking advantage of this me time and it's really nice. I feel very in control of my life and am so close to Jesus :) I would like to casually date, but I know that that's not me. So for now it's just me and Jesus! And you know, I am okay with that :)

Funky Jesus Music :)

I know that I say it a lot, okay a lot a lot, but I truly am blessed! In every sense of the word! I started watching baby Mackenzie today. She's three months old. Oh am I in love :) She's such an angel. So tiny. And the way she watches me melts my heart. I didn't want to put her down, not even for her to nap!

So July is up. So is my month of fasting. And I must say, I kind of miss it! But I also feel so much more in control of my life. I have learned how to say *no* when someone asks for my number and I'm not interested. No more pity dates!

Off to Zee's first scrimmage! I love that child and am such a proud sister :)

Blessed :)

I truly feel more and more abundantly blessed daily!!! I know this may sound impossible, but it's not! I believe, no, I KNOW that BEING blessed is a STATE OF BEING. It's not something that just happens on occasion or what not. And I know that I live a blessed life. God blesses me daily. And the more I seek HIM, the more He blesses me! And I couldn't be happier!

It's neat how when you least expect something, it happens! I am "fasting" men for the month of July. Something I chose to do for myself because I was having such rotten "luck!" I gave myself that time to focus on me and strengthen my relationship with Jesus. I must say, July has been AMAZING! Although it has very much flown by, I have done a lot and made a lot of memories and had LOTS of me time :) Blessed, blessed I am!!!

Details on my amazing weekend soon :)

Men. Can't live with em, can't live without em.

Oh what a day! I will never ever ever understand the opposite sex. I suppose they say the same thing. But come on!!! I swear, this is it. If this doesn't work out, I am DONE. Not forever but for a long, long time. I just can't endure anymore heartache and pain. I have prayed. I have and continue to seek God. And I make it clear from the beginning of my intentions and that the Big Guy comes first. So why do I have so many problems with men? I've tried all different types as well. Older. Younger. White. Black. Puerto Rican. Italian. Irish. Russian. That's like every "kind" there is haha And I've dated men of God. So again, what's the problem? Oh my sweet Jesus please help me. Show me what you want me to do. I am forever yours. I love you. Eternally.

Listening to the Big Guy!

I am just happy! Happy happy happy! Everyday is a new day. Everyday is a challenge in some areas. But you know what, God is on my side and I can do ANYTHING with Him!!! I KNOW that I am where God wants me. And no matter what anyone says, it won't change my view. As long as I seek Him, He WILL let me know where He wants me.

I feel blessed to have finally found a church that is meant for me!!! Thank you Jesus! I have been praying and searching for years! And finally, finally I have met my match =) Greenford is amazing! The church body is incredible! I feel so welcomed by so many people! They're so nice and they WANT to be there! Every week I meet new, wonderful people of the Lord. And I learn so much not only during service but just being there. It's such an amazing experience and I thank God for placing me there!

Today, I saw a gentleman two rows in front of me. He had on a Vietnam Vet jacket. I contemplated saying anything. Because sometimes I feel silly. But I am working towards this new found courage and strength that the Lord has given me. So I went up to him after service. It took a lot in me to hold back tears. Being the emotional woman that I am. And I thank him for serving our country. He said thank you and said for that I get a hug. I was overjoyed. We talked for a little bit. I told him about J. He said he'll be praying for him and to look for him because he'll be around if I need prayer for J. Wow wow wow!!! What a blessing!!!

Also, during service, Pastor Jeff had a woman give her testimony. It was touching. She has breast cancer. But instead of calling it a trial, she calls it a journey that she's on with God. She was just so positive and upbeat. I was in awe. She also works at the Pregnancy Crisis Center. She's the nurse who does the ultrasound and what not. She's helped many girls decide against abortion! I went up to her after service as well. I didn't mention the cancer at all. I'm sure she gets enough talk about that. But I talked with her about her job for a good twenty minutes. I was so thankful that I did!!! What she does is such a blessing! And the Pregnancy Crisis Center is a Godsend =)

Thank you, Jesus for all of your wonderful blessings in my life =)

Danielle =)

I just wanted to thank my sweet sister in the Lord, Danielle, for making me this AMAZING blog!!! Steeler fan or not, you must admit it's prettt neat =) Thank you again!!!