Bury me in satin...

I LOVE The Band Perry :) Incredible music and so powerful. Can I just say that today has been terrible :( One of the worst days I have ever had. I can't remember a day being this bad. But God is good and tomorrow is a new day. Thank goodness. I just need to slow down and get things in order. Soccer at the Y starts Saturday :) Pretty pumped about that! League Director? That's right! How exciting!

I feel like I go through men the way most people go through panties. So over it. But I will NEVER be a casualty. My name is Rachel Bell. It just amazes how some men NEVER grow up. If you want a woman in your life, treat her with respect. And he didn't want sex, just casual dating. Basically til something better came along??? Not sure but I'm not sticking around to find out. And it's hard because he may be a "good guy" but I don't need more friends in my life.

I get to see Peyton and Parker tomorrow!!! Sooo excited :) Then Zee's first game! Yeahhh!

I love Jesus. He never ever fails me. He always loves me. Unconditionally at that! I am blessed :)

Pakistan.

J is being shipped over to Pakistan next Friday. Poor Sar, he's going the day before her birthday :( It's so last minute and unplanned and I'm so frustrated with all of the work I am missing. God is good though and He is watching over ALL of us and I know it'll all work out :) So Monday we are leaving for North Carolina! Kind of bittersweet because I love it NC but don't feel like driving 24 hours in three days ha.

Have I mentioned how much I LOVE being single? No I don't like being alone but I am taking advantage of this me time and it's really nice. I feel very in control of my life and am so close to Jesus :) I would like to casually date, but I know that that's not me. So for now it's just me and Jesus! And you know, I am okay with that :)

Funky Jesus Music :)

I know that I say it a lot, okay a lot a lot, but I truly am blessed! In every sense of the word! I started watching baby Mackenzie today. She's three months old. Oh am I in love :) She's such an angel. So tiny. And the way she watches me melts my heart. I didn't want to put her down, not even for her to nap!

So July is up. So is my month of fasting. And I must say, I kind of miss it! But I also feel so much more in control of my life. I have learned how to say *no* when someone asks for my number and I'm not interested. No more pity dates!

Off to Zee's first scrimmage! I love that child and am such a proud sister :)